Feeling sad coz being treated too good

Recently my blog posts were so unreadable..nth interesting..bz and lazy really no time for blogging..

But today i have decided to add new posts coz im feeling guilty and dunno..mix feelings..y do my parents have to treat me so gd..everytime they did dth gd for me i would feel sad..perhaps coz i tink i owe them too much..juz discovered my mom and dad called me in wee hrs..from 2am to 4am..added up bout 60-80 times i tink..haiz..they must have had a tough nite worrying bout me..while i was sleeping and awake and sleeping again..my very bad habit that costs my health and now my parents health..accidentally press last call juz once to mom and they spent the whole nite calling me..and i replied only at 4am..haiz..y do they have to be so protective..they worried bout me alone at my unit..mayb ppl dun understand y i have to feel sad every weekend when i leave kl back to subang..its really like a heaven and a hell..coz i was treated too gd at home i feel emotionally imbalance when i stay outside..of coz i can't have anyone treating me tat gd outside my house..sometimes its hard to accept tat difference..nobody could understand this unless u face the same situation as me..and i cnt even get rid of my bad eating habit..which not only make my parents spend a lot on food but also make me miss my mom's homecook food coz i wont eat after i have overeaten during day time..never fail to be invaded by remorse aftr i overeat but aftr i don't feel full anymore i would go bac to that habit..i have not only disappoint myself too much but also my mom and dad..i promise i will be extra carefull during the cycling pledge..i cnt afford to let them worry again..