Not a postive post

Stuffed myself till max again..in fact more den max coz I expanded and expanded my stomach forcefully..sick of complaining..the wound in my heart has turned into a scar that I dun feel the pain that much anymore..depression has turned into an absolute despair.. the voice in my mind that kept screaming ”who can help me’’ is getting weaker..im tired..so does my mind and soul..i have spiritually and emotionally relied on food too much that the only way of getting rid of it is seemed to get rid of my emotion and soul..which is impossible..i can only stay still and stare at the ferocious flame that is burning my dream of achieving my ideal weight..bits by bits

If there is a way that i can get rid of emotional eating..i am willing to give anything in return for that..